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I feel alone, I have always felt alone and feared being seen as alone. I tend to want a fair bit of time alone, for my own protection as I have been mistreated by people close to me. I was bullied from a young age, beginning with my father, who I wanted to love so much, but he was internally torn by feelings of the drudgery and (unwelcome) responsibility of giving care when he didn't receive any from his parents.
He hid his bad temper well in front of others , which makes me think I must have been imagining it. My mum was complicit in it too , even though at points she was close to leaving him. She too find it painful to reveal what she (and I ) put up with..
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I am Rich's mother Joanne, he was a lovely boy, so sweet like a little cherub with his pursed lips! I love him so much and this family of mine means more to me than anything. Pete was raised on a council estate (project) so he didn't have the care or privaledge that I did, and he loses his rag a lot, and he has hurt me deeply.. But I soldier on - because I love this family - and I can always go back to my folks for some relief when it gets too much....I believe that once you have made you bed you must lie in it, and it's the 1970s - its just shameful to be a single mum...I cannot imagine life with out Pete...my own parents shamed me because I suffer from epilepsy which back then was ...a real flaw.... Pete offered a life outside of that.
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ReplyI always wonder what "being careful " really means. " Be careful " says the parent whose children were visiting friends houses on their own ( in the 70's , or before clearly - it's not allowed now). What uncarefully visits their friends? What does that mean to "uncarefully " do something. . to intentionally wish to bring harm on your self , and friends ? Who really does that. I sum that "being careful " is a fairly meaningless platitude, I think in this case , I perhaps was too "careful" , too "cautious" , to risk averse......and I chose a partner not as adventurous as me, who in time ...well we just grew to have very different tastes in almost everything .
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