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She Left me and I Don't Know What to do
7 months ago · · Explicit
She with whom I've spent my 4 years now she left me. 4 years, I must say this was really sweet of her staying with me this long cuz I never thought someone can actually stay with me even for a day but she stayed yes I was happy with her I didn't wanted anything from her but just Her so why she left me without a word. Right now I am a mess I've my exams in like a week and she messed with me this way and the thing is without a reason okay if you wanna leave it's okay you can it's your life it's your decision but atleast give me a appropriate reason na. So let me start this from all over the beginning so there is this guy who proposed to her but she was all confused what to do and she told me about this and ofcourse she told me how she have a crush on the same guy so I was all happy but couldn't understand why she is not letting go of her past and moving on I tried to make her understand and she said she'll think about this but right now she don't wanna start any relationship And ofcourse I supported her decision but suddenly one day umm in the morning we were messaging each other and every thing was absolutely fine we were cracking jokes and stuff like that but the very same evening when I texted her asking What she is upto she said to wait for a min I did wait but then she went offline, I found it very odd but I waited but she didn't came back I thought maybe she is busy it's okay and I was just bored so I texted her so even I went offline then umm few hours later when I went back online I found she wront a long ass msg saying she is cutting off with everyone so with me as well and I couldn't understand what she meant by that so basically I tried to mag her back but yes ofcourse she blocked me so she couldn't read those I tried her every other social media handle but no use I tried calling her but nothing.. So basically this blocking thing happened like umm 2-3 days ago and right now I went online again and guess what I got her text yes she texted me and blocked me again. And the thing is the text is really odd I don't know what to do. She said I'm hurting her She said She did everything for me but I don't deserve that and I've no idea how come this happened it hurts her words hurts like hell we ain't in the same college and Idk any of her friends no. I am literally blocked out from her life and I can't even do anything. Tbh I don't want a reason I just want how she said She hates me no actually it's okay If you hate me but she said she haye herself and she hate herself cuz of me this hurts so much why would she say this like what happened suddenly She said all the love yous were fake I am fake everything is fake b/w us. HOW WHY WHYYYYY I wanna cry but I don't even know for what it hurts cuz she was the only friend whome I trusted and she said these were the worst year for her. No No No why would she say this. I know her situation in the home it's not really good right now I was worried somthing happened in her home thats why she blocked me but the reason which she gave. She ment I did this to her I hurted her I pissed her off then why she said she is shutting everyone If ut was just me who did something to you which exactly I don't even know. I don't know what to do I feel empty within I feel like crying I. I don't know Please Please I just wanna understand her I .. Why would she say she hates me We use to share every single thing right then why. I am ready to say sorry but first she needs to talk right. It's irritating it's like killing me inside I can't focus on my studies I can't I Am Sorry. I remember all the little things she did and yes I am gonna cherish those moments but why would she say she hates me no actually it's okay I know I don't deserve an angel like you but she Hates herself cuz of me I can't I am sorry for coming in your life . You know what after writing this I kinda feel light so I am ist gonna let her go Let her live her life cuz that what she wanted And ofcourse I'll move on but I just hope she be happy ever after Hope she gets all the happiness she achieve the goal she always wanted to. I'll miss you and I loved you and love you more.. now I am gonna love you more yes I am happy you opened up to me Thank you for choosing me as your friend yes the time we spent together was only 4 years but these were the best time for me so Thank you and I mean it. How funny I am writting this as is she'll read it. What a crazy person I am. Ahh but I'll miss your new relationship party now hehe.. Miss You CP