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1 month ago · · Alone,
I've always felt lonely. Even surrounded with people I know I feel so alone. I've never had an actual best friend in which I can share my inner most thoughts and it sucks. I wish I could just have someone to talk to and not feel any judgement. I know a lot of people and it may seem that I get along with everyone. I'm always smiling but in reality I am really alone. All my friends are great but I can never be fully be myself with them. Sometimes from certain people I get the vibe that they only talk to me when they have no one else to talk to. Some other people I know that I would consider to be my good friends although I don't open up to them have other friends that would be their best friends you know? They have their I don't know how else to put it but "main friends" and then there is me. These people would classify as my good friends and they are great people but I don't feel that close. I would share some of my feelings with them but friendship is a two way street. They would never share how they felt with me because they had best friends to share it with. So I rarely share my feelings with anyone. I wish I had a best friend that I could just be myself and create so many memories with. I know part of the reason why I don't have a best friend is because I have no self confidence but I never seem to click with people. I also know that eventually I will find people I click with but I just wish it would be sooner. As much as I tell myself that I am my own best friend and that with time I will meet the right people it still makes me sad. With this quarantine going on my social interaction has completely depleted as I only get texts here and there which sucks. It really hurts knowing that I don't have someone to openly talk to. Thanks for reading and hope you stay safe! Have a nice day!