I want to live a happy life

I hate my life. Why do I have such a bad life. Why does my brother have to suffer and say that he wants to die and that his life is ruined. Why do people have to drink. Why are men so unfaithful. Why can't I be happy. After a year I will move away. But is it the right choice if my brother stays here and suffers. Why everything has to get worse. My friend says that he is depressed and that his life is bad but i would give everything to live a life like him. He does not know what is the fear of his home. He doesn't know what I have to endure all day. He doesn't know what it's like to think that your whole life is terrible and that nothing better will happen. Why can't I have a family like others. Why does my brother have to suffer. I want to get away from here. I want to get away. I want to be alone. I want both parents. I want them to love each other. I want them to love me. I want them not to drink. I want to feel safe. I want to get out of this hell. I want someone to understand me. I want to tell someone all this but I can't. I'm scared. But I don't want to die. I know someone has it much worse than me. I know that someone would give everything away so that they could live a life like me. I know that time will heal all wounds. I find it hard to believe but I hope so. I want to live happily.