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I'm a 16 year old female who has been on Vyvanse for ADHD for around 6 or 7 months now and I think I'm becoming addicted if not already addicted. My sister has an addiction with pain pills as well as vyvanse. I'm only writing this because I don't know if I should bring this up the next time I see my doctor. The thing is, I've been taking more than I'm supposed to a lot. Everyday pretty much. Sometimes I don't sleep and then I'll just take another one. Its getting to the point where I need to take it just to get up in the morning and actually function. If I don't have it then I get another stimulant from someone. I've lost around 13 pounds (I'm 5'5 and 136Ibs but probably less than that now) but gained back like 2 or 3 pounds in like the 3 days I didn't take it. My doctor said he is bothered by how much weight I've lost. He is giving me a month to prove that I can maintain a healthy weight or he will lower the dose. I can't eat on Vyvanse I just don't feel hungry and if I try to eat I'll just gag. I sweat a lot on it and when I stand up I almost pass out. My heart beats really fast and I have health anxiety so I constantly check my heart rate which scares me sometimes. I bite my lip for a whole hour when I'm really high. I just like feeling okay and happy and energetic. I have depression and its gotten so much worse over the past few months. I have suicidal thoughts all of the time and it feels like I'm going fucking insane. I don't want to be addicted to pills. But I also don't want to be overthinking all of this. I have chest pains a lot and I run out of breath extremely easily (I am out of shape though). Its concerning me. I have really bad paranoia now and I talk really fast sometimes or for long periods of time which is not something I normally do. And when I come down from the high I get angry and irritated and extremely depressed. I'm a lot meaner to be honest. I scream a lot and insult people that are close to me just because I feel irritated over nothing. I don't want to be like this. And this hasn't started until a few months after taking Vyvanse. I failed my 2nd semester. I was doing good until the last bit (I was homeschooled before they closed) but then when I took the vyvanse I would focus on other things instead of my school work and I would either bite the skin off of my lips or pick at my head/hair the whole fucking time I was high. Then I would get mad because I spent all of that time doing nothing so I took another one and did the same fucking thing. So I only passed art appreciation and failed history, english, geometry, and Spanish. My life is falling a part and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm losing my mind.
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This isn't a medical site but I suggest you tell all of this to your doctor and hopefully he/she will work something out even if it is to put you into hospital for a little while to check your progress. It might not come to that but you certainly need help as soon as possible. Also you must tell your doctor you have been taking more of these pills than you should. Make sure to tell him/her everything you have said on this post so that you can be helped. I wish you all the best.
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