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2 weeks ago · · hurting, · Explicit
I’ve been feeling super alone lately.
I try talking about it. My recent Ex and I are still friends. Or we were. I’m pretty sure she’s pulling away, probably met some one new, she’s already over it though so I mean, kudos to her. But as much as she said she cares about me when she broke up with me through text, I don’t think she does.
Idk, I always knew it probably wouldn’t work out. I mean, she’s in her early 20s and I’m in my early 30s lmao.
That being said, since she seems to be my only friend. Everyone Elise mysteriously vanished when I needed a shoulder. I’m only useful to people or my own parents when I’m doing stuff for them. I’m just so, lonely.
I miss being cuddled, and holding her close and tight.
I miss the good morning texts, and goodnight texts.
I miss the I love yous. And yes, the sex.
I miss the noises she would make when we cuddled.
And the way she looked when she smiled.
I miss her. And now, I miss the only friend I ever had, that had my back.
That was there for me.
That made me feel like I mattered.
And now, I feel alone.