Perspective

i think i'm starting to fall for her. So this technically started as a ~joke~; but my weak ass heart could no longer separate reality from this game. I know what i've put myself into, but I was not prepared. She flirts back a lot and she would start saying things implying that this is no longer a game but then I saw her tweet, and today felt a little different. I think she's talking to her "ex" again. She still sent a flirty good morning message this morning, but am starting to think that she's just keeping the facade so I would think that everything is just a game. A ruse to not tell me directly that we're over. lol ghooorl, I can't really trust this heart :(

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I like her, but i'm still not over my "ex". We decided that we're together as a joke, because her ex messaged her; but somewhere along the constant conversations, we knew something changed. it was no longer just a game. BUT i am not emotionally ready. I just tried cutting off ties with someone I've loved for more than a year already. idk. i like her, but i guess i'm not ready. idk what to do.