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im so in love with him but he has these episodes where he gets drunk and doesn't like something i do(like today when i got us a lift home, even tho he asked to go home but by the time i got a lift he didn't want to anymore and wasn't happy) so he starts accusing me of like controlling him or being abusive or today he was angry because i met his friend earlier and didn't tell him (i bought drugs and wanted to tell him but by the time we got to his other friends after he finished work, everyone there was taking some and i didn't say anything because i didn't want him to end up putting them out there for everyone cause i work hard for that money and didn't even want them in the first place but got them to have a night out but not for everyone) so he said he will get back at me by meeting one of my friends and not telling me anything about it. i see where he's coming from but it's different, it's his friend who he trusts and end of the day I was the one who told him (when we were going home) so i wasn't hiding it i had a reason not to say straight away. and them he said that and it hurt me because i know he said the same thing to his ex and then ended up cheating on her. and then he ends up saying to me to leave knowing very well i have nowhere to go and texts his friends saying i'm abusing him (i never did anything, except once slapped him because he kept saying "just go, do it, hit me, i will have proof you're a psycho" so i thought you know what? i might as well give him that proof. but it was one slap on shoulder and he suddenly started faking being afraid of me, started twitching at my moves and putting his camera up and phoning his pals saying im hurting him etc. then phoning police saying i should not be here even tho i stay here now and have noone to go to. it's such a long story and it broke my heart in every possible way but i have no choice than to come back not because i have nowhere else to go but because i pove him and know it's not the first time he's like this, he always sobers up and apologises but i'm always afraid what if this time he wont? what if his mind will be too proud and he will be ready to let me go even though i love him so muc? what if he already planned to be with someone else? what if me doing everything in the house and cooking and caring for him is not enough? what if i'm not enough? what if i should just leave with nowhere to go? ðŸ˜
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babygirl you don't deserve any of this he is manipulative and very toxic if he truly loved you he wouldn't treat you like this I know it's difficult but he does not deserve you and you're already doing so much for him :( if you have any family friends whose place you could crash at until you get back on your feet or if you are able to leave him and stay somewhere I would advise you to trust me it's better to be alone and at peace than with someone like that who's constantly hurting you it's very concerning that he is saying the same things to you he said to his ex that he cheated on you need to put yourself first because you deserve way better than him <3
ReplyWow that's like not good, my opinion all that is a not good mix , I say save some money and find another place to stay, I feel his manipulative acts like a victim but truth is he's mentally abusing you
ReplyHe is a toxic person who is using you I am sure you can stay with one of your friends before you find a place to stay
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