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9 months ago · · life, · Explicit
What does one do. I have depression, anxiety, agoraphobia, bad headaches every day, dizziness, memory problems ...also bad back ankles and knee issues as well as muscle weakness problems lifting. Well I apply for disability...I'm only guessing their lackie's don't understand what a effing panic attack is like. Or care about suicidal tendencies. After a 5 month wait jumping through all their hoops....not even getting to see an actual Dr just video conference b.s. one day after the mental evaluation on a fucking video conference they issue a denial. Ok if I was fucking able to work I'd be doing it. I always worked when I was able. It's a last fucking resort. I mean what do I gotta do fucking slit my wrists. They send me a denial letter...yes I know generally everybody gets denied on the first try usually it's said. But what they said despite all medical records that they saw me fit to be able to do "other work". Ok just wtf is that supposed to mean? The only work around here for unskilled people if you can actually tolerate being around people which I can't ...I get over anxious eating out for crying out loud... is factory work standing on concrete hot temps lifting heavy crap 8 10 hrs a day. Well that wore my feet ankles and knees out doing that so many years. Hell I even have to walk up and down stairs one step at a time. Another thing that pisses me off the people who fake it and get away with it when I have actual issues. That WERE DENIED.
They or the last quack I talked to gave me a really bad review. His rating in Google is 2.7 of 5 stars so you see why ...he's just a denial quack.
There's not much in other work category especially with out skill sets that I could do. No education from college. Had I got to see an actual psychiatrist perhaps not just video chat b.s. I might've had a better chance. I guess I'll have to appeal it. I mean what part of suicidal thoughts don't they fucking understand that I told them I had? They wont take it seriously? I suppose I'll end up in a mental ward then since nobody wants to take me seriously. I don't even know anymore can't win for losing in life. resorting to .... whatever...is the obvious next step then since nobody takes me seriously that I have actual fucking problems!!!!!!!!! just can't help the issues I have. Anxiety and depression cost me my last 2 jobs. Think they care? Answer is obvious.