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She Doesn't See Me the Same As Her Other Two Daughters...
3 years ago · 4 · Stress, +5 · Explicit
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Sometimes, when I stay over at my cousin's house. My parents always go out to eat with my other two sisters. My cousin checks snapchat to see who's posted on their story and there it is, my mom's story. He shows me the photo and my parents look so happy. They all look so happy. Like I don't belong anywhere in that picture.
My mom and I argue from time to time, deciding who is right about the conversation. I always wait until she brings boys up into the conversation. Because she brings it up out of nowhere and the conversation NEVER involves boys. But here she is, thinking that boys are the only thing I think about in life. She compares me to a person I'm related to but I don't act ANYTHING like that whore. My mom assumes that I'm flirting with boys 24/7. "You talk to nobody but boys. All your friends are boys." She always says. And here's what I'm going to say about that. Almost every girl in the world has friends that are boys. In my opinion, boys understand me better. We barely have any drama, we don't shop for five hours at the mall looking for unnecessary things, like playing video games and we like sports. I'm not going to be the type of girl to wear cute sandals because I HATE wearing open-toed shoes. I'm not going to be the type of girl to wear my hair up because I only put my hair in a messy bun or a ponytail. Nothing more and nothing less. And I'm not going to be the type of girl to hang out at the mall for more than five hours because I hate shopping unless I'm buying my own things.
I just wish my mom could stop assuming I'm a slut. I don't go to hotel rooms and fuck boys 24/7, I don't go to the club and twerk on so many guys, I don't wear clothes that reveal SO much of my body, and I didn't get pregnant at a young age. I'm a fucking virgin for heaven's sake! I don't smoke or drink, I don't mess around with guys because I respect myself and set my boundaries, and I don't wear unacceptable clothing!
A few days ago, I told my parents I wanted to kill myself. And I know they heard me because they had surprising looks on their faces. But it's like they don't care! I never heard the words, "I'm so sorry you're going through this," or "Everything's gonna be okay." I didn't hear shit! I'm so tired of arguing with my mom and dad if they won't listen to me! If they won't realize that I'm nothing like other people! That I'm dealing with so much fucking crap in my life! I'm so freaking done! I want help because I'm scared of leaving the people that do care about me. I really don't want to leave them to cry at night. But I can't stand being here anymore! I'm so exhausted! I want to just end everything around me! Please give me some advice. I can't breathe and my head hurts so much.
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You didn't say your age so I don't know whether you are a minor or not. If you have left school and have a job look for shared accommodation with other young people. If you have a friend you can move in with do so, or ask a relative to take you in. If you are still at school you can call the department of child protection and ask them if they can help you. I hate hanging around shops too, and only go to them when I am buying something. You say you are scared of leaving the people who care for you but you can't stand being there any more. This is a contradiction. I had a horrible home life when I was younger so I looked forward to the day I would move out and be away from my parents and I left when I was 15 and I wasn't scared. You will leave one day too.
ReplyI'm 16 and thank you so much. This actually seems like the best advice. Thank you so much. I appreciate it. Hope you're staying safe! :)
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I had a rough youth... I'm am from a broken home so to say. I'm 38 now and I can tell you I tried to end it and it just would not happen. I ran away many times and I was kicked out beaten etc... but here I am. It will pass. Fuck em
Replywait i feel like putting your hair up in a bun or ponytail IS the only way to where your hair up lol...because that's all i do haha
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