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People are interested in each other’s lives. They want to know the smallest details to live the experience.
How did it feel? How did you allow yourself to do it? Who was there? Do you regret it? Would you change it?
See, it is difficult to explain one chapter of my long book I call life. I can’t have you live it. Words wouldn’t grasp the details. Yet, it is the chapter everyone never fails to ask about. The one they remind me about. The one they blame me for.
Close your eyes and imagine this:
You sailed to a deserted island. On your own, no one around to help or support you. You sit hours at night talking to yourself. Cooking meals to eat on your own. Days go by, no one notices you are missing. Everyone you left behind assume you are fine. Why wouldn’t they? You have always been their rock. You can’t fall.
You think to yourself on a windy day, let me sit on the shore. You know you can’t swim but you want to relax there. Or so you tell yourself. While you sit there dwelling in your unspoken thoughts, you can see a strong wave about to hit. Yet, you don’t move. You are numb. You are excited.
The wave sweeps you off the soft sand and you are not scared. You feel very relaxed though you know you can’t save yourself back to the shore. You know if you screamed for help no one can hear you.
As the wave drags you under, you start to lose breath. All thoughts in your head jump excitingly “You can finally leave. Start over. A fresh start!” The thought of giving up to the wave is so overwhelmingly intoxicating. Should I? I have no purpose of continuing.
Then out of nowhere, out the blue, you remember you left something on that island. Something precious. You left someone that needs you. That wants to live life together. To listen to him. To motivate him. To love him unconditionally. To be his mom.
Swimming becomes an instinctive motion. Your legs start paddling rapidly. Your hands spread widely and strongly. One motion after the other. You are tired but you will not give up. You must live because you found one of your purposes.
You reach the shore and are relieved you didn’t get sucked in. You get to live. To live, with an angel that taught you the hardest lesson in your life. This angel is also the beautiful soul that saved your life.
Losing hope and going through depression is not something someone chooses to experience. However, how you fight back is entirely in your hands. I can’t honestly express the experience; I am yet to understand it myself. All I know and sure of, is God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. I am one strong solider with the most heroic angel.
If people would focus on their own lives a bit more, they will give themselves the chance to learn from their own experiences. Everyone’s story is different. Don’t try to read and live my chapter because your chapters are from another book. Write and live your own story.
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