What are you looking for?
To Future. This is what I feel
3 weeks ago · · toxic relationship, · Explicit
You said you don't have the time and yet you made time to start a fight with me.
So you have the time to instigate a fight but no time to settle it.
you think your comments don't hurt and don't fester.
Well let me tell you buddy.
Every word you say kills me significantly! You are selfish to think that only you hurt and only you are busy and only you are affected!
You put me in a trap.
You set the fight and keep me in check, forcing me to swallow the blood, the pain.
Because once I try to defend myself, I become dramatic and I become the stain to your family's day. Especially today!
You are bullshit! You know how to think for others but not for me.
I hate you!
You dare to let the wound fester, sleep it off while I struggle to sleep, not because of a guilt that's eating me alive, but because of a voice that's drowning. suffocating, forced to be shut off!
And yet you dare to come to me all giddy like nothing happened?!
Well, a lot HAPPENED! You murdered my sanity! Crushed and pulped my soul and you took my voice away
I hate you
I hate you!
Because of you, I am ruined