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1 year ago · · need inspiration,
Lately I've been feeling very uninspired. I have so many monologues in my head, but I never let them out. I write about things on my computer or on paper, but I never finish it or share it with anyone. Sometimes I ask people random questions about things in life and that gives me some thoughts to thhink about even more. For example: today by watching a series sth came up my mind. A simple question that if asked at a right time, can make people think very deeply. I used this question for a text to a friend. Let's name him Lorenzo. I usually write to him, when I get sudden questions in my head and I want complex but good responds to them.
Yet today, he anwered very simply. " Music", he wrote. "Nice view. Anything prompts inspiration". He might be right. But then, why am I feeling very lost at this question?
My boyfriend for example answered to me with: " My imagination. I see sth and then I imagine myself acting out the so called scene as the leading role."
Interesting thoughts, I would say.
But what inspires me?
I'd probably need to go back to times, when I actually felt like that. One thing or week I will never forget and this was sth that changed my whole view on the world. It was an Erasmus exchange to the Netherlands. At first I felt very uncomfortable. All those strangers from different nationalities and unfamiliar places. I felt like a mouse in Big Apple. But then after a couple of days exercissing those bonding games and sharing thoughts, opinions, having a few arguments, I felt very liberating and fond of it. On our last evening we lit on some candles in two lines that made up a "runway". We were sitting in front of the lines and looking infront of each other. I have never felt so me in my entire life. I felt appreciated. I felt loved from complete strangers. And now noone can say that different cultures or languages can be a problem. I tell you, they aren't.
And at that moment I felt empowered. I felt all of them. Not just the person on the opposite site, I felt the whole line. It made my burst in tears. Tears of joy. Because I never realised how people can be so open-minded. I feel like in today's place, here in my town or country people are very grey. You rarely find any inspiration or joy. And I think ( me relising this through writing right now) I know my inspiration.
People. Cultures. Sharing opinions. That's sth I've been seeking for awhile now.
And it's not just that. It's strong music with emotions. It's not just that tipical classical music. Even pop or rock can have a whole string of emotions behind it.
Often times even my therapy sessions inspire me. Since I've been a regular for 4 year now, my therapist often gives me exercises to write on some topics, becaue she knows that I am very excited to write about it/them. Which means that eventhough I am a regular at therapy, I get waves of total failure and no motivation for hobbies. I just don't get inspired lately. And I've been thinking about this problem of me to connect with people. And maybe, I have found a solution.
And now I am asking you- people that maybe or maybe not have read my rambling thoughts. What inspires You?