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This is a tough one to explain, but if you're willing to read, thanks.
This dude and I have been talking online for a while. We're the same age and we pretty much know everything about each other. We're online best friends and he is an amazing person. We talk everyday. However, he starting to creep in some of that sweet talk into our convos, and i find it funny and make jokes, but he's honestly being so sweet and i can't help but love him more.
The thing is, my subconscious is telling me this is a platonic relationship; after all, there's nothing wrong with saying 'I Love You' to your best friend. I believe that we're simply best friends, but the energy when we text is something much more than that, and i can't help but notice it. He's honestly such a kind sweet person but the major issue is i'm not even supposed to be talking to him.
My parents are strict cultural and religious people. If they found out I even have an online persona, they'd flip out and punish me. So if they find out that I (A) Have an online best friend who is (B) The opposite gender (C) have been talking online everyday and (D) been talking all lovey-dovey (which i'm currently not taking too seriously) , I'm getting disowned. Period.
I'm not allowed to date at all. I'm not allowed to engage in any sort of relationships like that. But if my forbidden online best friend is throwing all this love at me, I can't ignore it! He has honestly lifted my self-esteem. He's a great friend and he makes me smile. But with this ambiguous romance floating around in out convos, idk what to think!
My main concern is my parents. My goddamn parents. They are...they're something else entirely. I have never had any freedom, and they wouldn't understand my situations even if I explained them for decades. I am petrified that they'll find my conversations and I'll be dead. Worse than dead. I'm shaking, i'm actually frightening myself.
In my eyes, i'm not doing anything wrong. I've found an online best friend, whom I need in these troubling times, and we enjoy each other's company, openly telling each other that we love each other, which is ok. But I'm SCARED! What if my parents find out? What if he actually goes further? How would I explain to him if he does take any next steps? How long will this friendship even last? Would he treat me differently if I told him I'm not allowed to have a relationship?
I'm so nervous, but he's so adorable and kind and I can't just let go of my best friend (who likes throwing around romantic comments).
This kinda just turned into a rant, but please, if you have advice, i'd be grateful to read it. Thank you :)
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ReplyLook if you are old enough to date someone then I think you should tell ur friend about your parents everything and if after knowing all this stuff he is still willing to be with you then that's better and if not then just stop all this thing I know it would be difficult but you need to be honest atleast with him trust me you would feel alot better after this and just hide it from your parents... if u r old enough to date someone and you can not live your whole life following such rules which your parents has made if you are working women then just leave the place don't make it too difficult for yourself and if you are not yet working then just hide it from them but make sure to tell that guy friend of yours everything either he will accept you or not but atleast in both cases you will get out of this whole tension... it's just an advice hope you will do whatever is best for you😊
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