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My Last Fall Update
6 months ago · · Cancer,
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I announce with a heavy heart that my sister is no longer with us. She passed away peacefully this morning. She went through so much, and now it is time for her to rest.
She kept me from posting here for the longest time, since she was sort of embarrassed. But now I am embracing her awkward, lovely, vibrant self.
She wished last night that nobody would cry over her, for she would be happier wherever the dead go. We all cried of course. I miss her singing and dancing and TikToks. I miss her laugh and her talking and her hugging. But most of all I miss her smile. Her smile is so close but so far. Ingrained in my head but out of reach. Death is so bitter sweet. You have to face the fact you will never, ever, hold them again. I am trying to face this. The hug she gave me last night was her goodbye. And I think I can live with that.
She turned to me, my parents, and other siblings last night and said this: You all mean the world to me. But I am leaving this world soon. I have so much more to live for in the afterlife. And there it will not matter if we love each other, which we will, because we have already lived life and seen the sun.
She wants people to remember her for who she was, and not who she could have been. She was just another person like me and you. She was a fourteen year old girl. She made mistakes, she tried her best. She lived life to the fullest without knowing it.
I will not make this post too long, so I guess that is all for today. I encourage you to donate to childhood cancer and brain cancer organizations to help kids like my sister live better and longer lives.
Fourteen years strong, eight years stronger. 2006-2020