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Note to self
1 year ago · · life,
I know you. I mean obviously. I'm YOU lol but I know what kind of a person you are. You are just extremely happy, caring and empathetic on the surface. Even to the core. But after all that "shadow work" you and I both know that we carry a lot of pain, sadness, and suffering deep down in there, somewhere. All that repressed trauma that came out, all of those awful moments, as well as the continued times that people still treat you like poo poo to this day. I know it's not easy, to carry SO much negativity deep within you which you do not reveal with others for the sake of THEIR own sanity.
You are a strong person my love. Your soul carries secrets like a motherf*cker, and you have put in more than enough work for others. You've given them all too much. Now it's time to let them be. Just let them learn on their own, okay? I know it's hard to watch them struggle at times, and to still have to see that happening right before your very eyes. But at the same time, you have vented enough, a little bit here and there, to family, to friends, to strangers, etcetera. You can relax and find your truly genuine happy side again babe. You did the hard work, now RELEASE it. Release the stress and tension, and now focus on what you gotta do for you. It's okay, I am allowing it. Let the heart ache ease a bit and do for YOU now baby <3 I love you so much you brave, sacrificial soul! You are so beautiful to me, even if nobody else said it or saw it in you today ^-^ now GET TO WORK! Lol