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11 months ago · · Depression,
Hi cute stranger :)
I have noticed you feeling out of place lately, anxious, depressed even. You feel like nobody gets it, you feel trapped. You feel like all your emotions are enclosed within a fragile glass bottle. You want to so desperately shatter it and tell someone before it shatters and breaks you down again. Well...I wanted to let you know, that you deserve to feel contentment again.
I know the statement 'pain is temporary' flies over your head each day, so you try to survive every day. I am so proud of you for existing up until the day, so would you at least go on for a few more days...? And when you fall again, I'll be there in your head to remind you that I care and that I love you, stranger.
Think about it, if you had absolutely no barrier or obstacle in life...where would life take you? What would you want? Everybody says happiness but I rather you find a purpose. Find something that drives you out of bed each morning. Find something to wake up to, something WORTH waking up to. It could be a simple thing. Like, the smell and taste of coffee each morning could be your purpose of living.
As always, start off small. Obviously, it sounds ridiculous to some people. "How can you live like that?", but don't worry. They don't understand but I do. I will accept you and I promise you, start off small and appreciate every little thing but using all your senses. Using the coffee example, smell the coffee beans, taste it, hear the coffee being poured, observe the dark brown swirls.
And lastly, smile. Then go to the nearest mirror, look at yourself, and keep saying positive affirmations such as:
"I am loved."
"People care about me."
"I am worthy of love, respect, and happiness."
At first, it might be unusual, awkward or an uncomfortable feeling will get to you, but you will get used to it. And your confidence and purpose to live will hopefully rise a bit.
I know it's hard. It is easier said than done. But I wouldn't have told you this if I didn't believe you would be able to go this far and achieve it because you can conquer anything.
Believe in yourself.