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3 months ago · · social anxiety,
All these years, I labeled myself as an introvert when I’m actually a shy extrovert with social anxiety. It’s such a weird contradiction. When I pictured an extrovert, I always thought of someone who is outgoing, outspoken, and confident in themselves. According to the research and reading I’ve done, extroverts are actually people who get energy from social interaction. Meanwhile, introverts recharge from time alone.
I have always loved being around people and always wanted to spend time with others, but my anxiety would stop me from doing just that. For example, if I were to get invited to a group outing, I’d get really excited at first, but then all these negative thoughts start rushing in. I can’t remember having anxiety as a kid in elementary school. I think getting bullied in middle school, which was so long ago, definitely played a role in the development of the anxiety I have today. I became too worried about what others thought of me that I built up high walls. It’s crazy because I never realized it until now, more than a decade later.