Well

This is just being honest. I'm just some anonymous person, so if you think I'm being too proud or something, please don't spend your energy hating me. I mean you can if you want I guess... anyway. I am always afraid to just throw out what it's like for me as a very attractive person, but I really want to put my thoughts somewhere. I mean, it's great being pretty, honestly. I could do absolutely nothing and get treated well whether I want that or not. But, actually that's so unfair and horrible that we're like that as people. It is so bizarre how we love attractive people, it's how people seem to have always been. I do try my best to be a caring person, helpful person, and hard working person. I would hate if someone were to tell me that people only love me because of my looks, or that I only got far in life because of my face and body. One thing I noticed about myself this year is that people are more forgiving to me when I mess up (like said the wrong answer in math class or something). It's not that I ever try to mess up, but people kinda smile and think it's cute sometimes when I do? Which is weird that that happens just because of my outward appearance. And then there's this strange pressure about dating. Everyone wants to know who I'll date. Honestly, I don't care about dating right now and just want to do college. But, many people are like, "I am soooo interested in knowing who you'll date one dayyyy." Even though I've said I may never date if it never actually interests me haha. Still people think I should date....or I should date them! Some guys who have liked me have treated me like an idol, I don't mean this in a good way because they were unhealthily obsessed. Which is weird because I am literally just some normal person. Like, I don't want to be some perfect person in anyone's mind, when that's not who I am. I am a person with flaws like everyone else. Ahh, I don't want to sound like I am complaining too much here, I do like the looks my parents gave me. I suppose I am just saying how things really are. Some things good, some things ehhh. Well, this is my life. It's nice to get it out idk why.