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I am so so done. My entire life I have been insecure about my weight and I got pushed to the edge a year ago in October 2019. I decided to loose weight, I am 5 feet 2 inches tall and weighed 125 pounds ( I never thought I was fat but never though I was skinny). Which never sounded like a lot to me, but when I would go to the doctors they tell me I need to loose weight. So I Became quite bulimic lost 15 pounds and thought I would finally look the way I wanted, but no I do not. So I was still trying to loose weight but stopped being as bulimic and more anorexic. Then I finally went to the doctors again, and with my shoes and clothing on I weighed 113 pounds. Then I thought my number said I was skinny I just did not look the way I wanted...... but noooooo... the doctors said they were happy with the number..... so did needed to lose weight.... and I was not skinny I was perfectly heathy. My goal was 99 pounds which for my Hight is not unhealthy. But since then I have weighed 110 and I have gone up and down. but Now I can stay bellow 110 my lowest being 103.8. That's when I realized 99 is not a good number because I was still so far away from looking the way I wanted to look. I hate the way I can feel my thighs rubbing together and I hate the feeling of a super full stomach. I hate my father and mother I hate my life, I want to kill my self. The only thing keeping me here is the thought I could weigh 89 pounds ( my new goal). I have been up and down in my weight. I remember being stuck in the 110-113 range then just going up to 116 like all my hard work had gone to waste, and I wanted to die then but I got it down and now I am at 105.6 and I know I am only going to go up. I am so done with this... I want to weigh 89. I am mislabel... waking up and living is torcher..... So I made a deal with my self... if I don't weigh 89 by my birth day I will kill my self. My birthday is February 22 so I have about 42 days to loose about 16 pounds or I am dead. There is no convincing me out of this, my plain is to only eat dinner, but I need tips on how to not be hungry and to help loose weight, I know I am asking for unhealthy advice, but the only thing keeping me here is the thought that I will finally feel comfortable in my own body. I will be dead morning of the 23 of feb if I don't weigh 89 so if you have any tips and tricks give um up, and if I still hate my self at 89 then that's fine I just need to see what it will be like. I already have an ED so ....
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Are u kidding me? ur pretty af u dont have to kill urself just coz u cant attain ur weight goals. Please stop being a kid, you're pretty. You're pretty. YOU ARE PRETTY.
Give up on this girl please. Stop tormenting yourself for something as silly as weight. Cheer up!
People see you as you see yourself. If you have confidence in you, others are gonna love you.
Dont do this please. You'll break my heart by doing this.
ReplyMy heart really goes out to you. I, too, have been bombarded with a ton of fat-shaming, especially from family (my friends have told me I'm average). It got way worse when I did put on a little bit of weight. But lately, I've been going by my new mantra: do what makes you happy. What exactly is our purpose in life: to live, eat, work and then die? Since it has to be that way, make the most of this miserable time on earth by doing the stuff that brings YOU joy. To hell with what others think. They're just another form of existence, bitter about life. I've taken to going boxing once a week to keep my body healthy and I also did think about taking up a part-time job that'll keep me on my feet cause the last one I had did help me in shedding a bit of weight. I hope this helps even a tiny bit and you'll stay strong.
ReplyHappy early birthday!
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weight loss isn't something you can rush. i'm struggling with the same thing right now, so i'm not a good example, but my mom is. she used to be almost 170 pounds (sorry mom). and now she is 127 pounds. she's around the same height as you, maybe even shorter. losing that much weight took her over 1.5 years (with like professional help and stuff as well). it's not going to be easy to lose that much weight in just that many days.
Please don't rush yourself. It won't be good for you or your health. It takes a long time to lose weight. It takes YEARS to improve body image.
Like you said, you want to look better. By that, I'm assuming lOOking skinnier. To appear skinnier, losing just weight is not going to help you. You could be losing hydration. Which is water. Water has weight, so if you drink less water, you'll be losing weight, but you'll be dehydrated and unhealthy and not improving your body image.
If you're starving yourself, you're losing weight and getting skinnier, but you won't be healthy either. And if you starve yourself, your body won't be getting the nutrition it needs, which is stuff like protein and everything else gym teachers talk about, so if you DO lose all the weight and you DO think you look better and you start eating normally again, there's a biiiiiiiiiiiiig chance that it'll all backfire super hard and you'll be back to your original weight, if not even higher.
To improve body image:
- EXERCISE
not much exercise is needed each day, depending on what you do. exercises that work your cardiovascular system can benefit you a LOT with not too much time needed. maybe jog for 20-30 minutes a day and that'll improve your cardiovascular endurance.
cleaning the whole house is also good exercise. I did it once for the whole family and I was so exhausted after that, I could barely move. it'll improve your muscular endurance, as long as you don't sit down for too much of it.
- HEALTHY DIET
malnutrition can lead to weight loss, but it'll probably backfire in less than 1/4 of the time it took you to lose the weight.
if you eat only meat for food, it'll help you lose weight. it'll be slow, though. around 5-10 pounds a month, depending on the person. and don't take in too many carbs. carbs make you feel full really fast and then make you feel hungry also really fast.
- DON'T RUSH IT!!
Good luck!
Replysorry for the science lesson :P
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