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Living through pain
1 month ago · · Love,
Theres this burn inside me,
I dont know why it emerges..
I see you, being happy with others,
All I feel is my heart's urges.
I see you smiling,
I realise you dont need me,
I see that you are happier,
I understand the reality completely.
Its been so long, since I wrote for you,
Since I accepted the untold reasons,
Been so long since I felt this heaviness,
And today...here I am....after so many seasons.
What seasons you must be asking,
Well, Seasons of Awe, Seasons of despair,
Seasons when I tried but couldnt cry,
And seasons, I needed to repair.
In the end, it all is about you,
Or shall I say its about us.
How I am still into you,
How I made my life hell, without any fuss.
Long story short, I still am yours,
But I know you wouldn't ever be mine.
I know things have changed,
And you have left me behind.
But thats the bittersweet virtue I believe,
You get to love anyone, even if its in vain.
You get to live a bit while constantly dying,
Even if its about living through pain.
Till the time my wishes come true,
Till the time I hold you again,
Till the time I guess I sleep or die,
Darling I ll keep feeling your name.