Crushes suck.

Backstory: I'm a freshman in college and the guy is a senior. There is about 70 days until this school year is over and he graduate.

Basically, I like this guy and everyone i have talked to think he is. I'm not convinced, but I have serious trust issues and a past with getting hurt from crushes because usually its more platonic squish rather than crush and it ends with everything burning to the ground. This is the first time I have been this head over heels about someone (this has been building for over a month now so it's slow). I imagine what dating him would be like, especially just getting to hang out with him and be close in a pg way.

But he's graduating in 2 months and sure he is located about an hour away from campus, and 2 hours from my house, but I'm not sure if he would even want to start something. I can handle the maturity difference since I think we are about the same level, but I understand if he would rather not be with the anxious kid (I'm 19, but still like 3-4 years younger).

We get along really well and I really love having him in my life and really want to be more than friends, but anxiety tells me to just drop it or try to let it fizzle out, but every time I see him he gets a little more flirty or seems more excited to see me or walks a little closer and my stupid heart goes crazy.

Just... what do I do? Do I continue to (try) to flirt and show my interest at risk of ruining everything? or do I give up? I see him on Wednesday for club and I have no idea what to do.