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1 month ago ·
I wish I could talk to my parents about how I really feel. It’s so hard for me to open up to them and show my vulnerable side. I’m going through a period in my life where I don’t know what to do in life, what college program I should go into, what career path I can take.. I just don’t have anything I’m really passionate about. I’ve been feeling depressed and anxious lately and I’m too scared to let anyone know. I’m usually a funny, out-going, and caring person. At least, that’s what all my friends and family say. But they don’t actually know what I’m feeling. I cry myself to sleep for the most random things, I feel insecure, I think I don’t have good social skills when it comes to talking to other people, I don’t like how I can’t do simple tasks, I have low self-esteem, and I don’t love myself enough. It gets harder to keep going and instead of living life, I’m trying my best to survive in it. I make sure I don’t skip my meals, do a physical activity everyday, and learn new things. But still, I’m not happy with what I’m doing right now. And I’m mad at myself for not being able to express how I truly feel to my parents or to my close friends. So, here I am writing this at 1am hoping I can sleep without crying about whatever I’m feeling or thinking after this.