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Who Am I Now?

2 years ago · 7 · Need Advice, +3


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“Where did my happy girl go?”

“What’s up with you?”

“Why are you always sad?”

The truth is I don’t know where she went. The girl with light in her eyes ready to conquer everything. The girl who smiled and never faked anything. The girl who was open to anything and was open about anything. She’s gone. She left. She stopped smiling. She stopped being open. She stopped having that light in her eyes. She started to feel numb. She started to wish she was dead. She wanted to be dead.

It’s me.

I’m that girl.

The girl who was once happy and now isn’t. What happened to me?

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  • GreySky · 2 years ago

    I'm not sure, but I'm right there with you. The best we can do is stop faking it for everyone else, and let some people in to help find her again. Lots of love, I know we can do this <3

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    • Filli · 2 years ago

      This yielded a new ray of faith within my heart. Thank you <3

      Reply
  • osidefever101 · 2 years ago

    Take a trip into the mountains. Be surrounded by things that are physically bigger than yourself. Or fly in a plane. Get high into the air. Go on top of the mountain. Escape into nature. It helps me out from time to time. Hope this helps..

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    • Filli · 2 years ago

      The activities you specified are sadly.. not available to be done in the current state of time. I wish I could go to the mountains and escape into nature, just as you said. Thank you for your time today :)

      Reply
  • ryding24 · 2 years ago

    Love, that girl will shine brighter again never before. She will rise and show the world who she is and what she will become. But right now, that girl has gone through hiding, she needs time to herself. She's not going through a positive stage in her life right now. She feels like she needs to keep herself away from this world by taking herself away from it. The world doesn't need you to go away, it needs you to at least try to stay strong. And with the right people, I know you can do it.

    Listen, the world can be cruel sometimes, including everyone in it. It can take away a lot of things you love or need. It can be a cruel person trying to make you feel uneasy or disappointed in yourself. Do not let the world do that to you. I personally believe you can find the little girl that was once you, once again, or maybe even a newer, bigger (im talking about age not weight) girl. But you'll never know if you commit.

    I don't know what your going through, but all I know is that I see a person who's not satisifed with themselves, and wants to get rid of that feeling. I want to let you know that what your feeling is COMPLETLY valid, and I'd advise you to enjoy the finer things in life. Or even the peaceful things. Decorate your room, read an awesome book, listen to new music, anything your mind can limit too. Please do not do this, and please reconsider on what you might do. Because I know that at least one person will be sad when your gone. Or anyone. Please don't do this, you can stay strong, and one day...

    That little girl may come back, stronger than ever, and ready to face the world once again :)

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    • Filli · 2 years ago

      Thank you so much T_T. This moved me to tears. I really cannot thank you enough for this heartfelt comment, friend <3 The gratitude I feel at the moment is indescribable. People who are like you, they really do exist, and are the reason that I feel hope of that girl's return and, will have the same light in her eyes as she used to long ago. Once again, thank you :))

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      • ryding24 · 2 years ago

        You are absolutely welcome! Now go on and enjoy the things that life has to offer to the little, inspiring, girl that was once you :)

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