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8 months ago · · Love,
I know we said that we would be just friends, that we were better that way, but we both know me, now y have to get rid of all of this again, those 2 years may have meant nothing to you, but I was dying inside.
When you left the first time it hurt like hell, it still does, it even hurt when you came back 6 months ago, it stills hurts now; and it's gonna hurt more.
I love you, and I mean it from the very deep end of my soul, I love more than anything, more than myself. You're the reason I'm still here.
I promised my mom to not go there again, to not go back were you left me, that's why I'm so scared this time, because I know that when you leave I'll be nothing but a sobbing body that aches to be yours.
I don't intend to make you the bad guy, you'll never be, it's just that our love is so wrong for so many reasons.
You yourself hate you, when she left you, you died, you came to me as a dead corpse, and I gave you my own heart so you could feel, and now I'm dead inside, with no one but you to make me feel.
I hate that after everything we've been through means nothing, that we made the same mistake.
And hate loving you, just because loving you means to leave you.