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1 month ago · · Stress, · Explicit
I don't know where to start but I am starting to loose hope.. I feel like why am still living this life. I can't choose what to do next in my life.i am at a stage that I think someone should give me a suggestion or tell me what to do next, but it seems like no one are interested in my life yet some people show some concern but that's not helping. I want to travel for a few days but I can't even do that. Most people now-a-days are getting into just ha working 5 days without a break, and the next two days they are planning to do something to make this world believe that they too are existing in this world and trying to prove that they are ahead or better than other people. I don't know why they are chasing on to something that they don't even like I mean we just live our life once. Every person out there wants to do whatever they want to but does something that is just something paying for their needs or whatever. I don't want to fucking care about the whole world but to me I couldn't choose what shoud I do with myself. I am getting so alone that am making people around me get psyched. I am not certain of what I want. I am just sitting idle with my mobile. Wish I could earn some money for my family but I don't know should I only work on what I have studied , or should I do what I like to do. I don't have a single thing that I like I want to explore the world ,mix music, take photos of places I go to ,meet new people, get to know new cultures, No person in his lifetime can get to know everything in this world right. I don't even know how it's to be to travel to the outside world. Can I even survive out there shit man! Wish I was born in the stone age where there are no people to judge ,no currency, do whatever u wanna do. shit is shit nothing's going to change . Everything is the same. How can I change my life it's upto me right. Most of the people live in a loop everyday ,every week, every year they just do the same I mean what dude what r u doin with ur life earning ,buying ,dying is that it! We are all here to do the same. I can't change no one everyone knows this , this world is just the way it is. Who am i to talk about change , in this pandemic some may have changed to love life to the fullest doing what they love. But I still can't take that step to live this life the way I wanted to. May be am to afraid to live the life which I love. People mark me as a psyched person if I choose to be different and live differently. Yea whatever if you read this far you to are upset about your life. Not only you and me most of the people these days hate their life,but we have just have to live anyways .We are not the one's who quit right .i wish I could be happy like before🥱 or maybe i just need some money 💸🤑 to buy something to remove all these thoughts from my mind which are echoing so loud that I can't tolerate😪. Bye take care guys ......