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3 days ago · · Stress, · Explicit
I worry about becoming mute. I never talk outside my own dorm. I'm way too much of an introvert, with massive insecurities, to talk to anyone. I'm lonely, I don't want to be. But there's nothing I can do about it. I want to feel something again. Not sadness, anxiety, stress, or mental pain. I want motivation back. I feel like I haven't felt hope or legit happiness in years. I want someone to sit next to me and just let me rant about my day and my problems, really just a listener. But I don't have access to that. All i really want right now is hug from the heart to know someone cares. Living socially is just too much to ask from me though. You think it'd be easy in college. I'm an outcast so its not. Everyone around me is athletic, or does drugs, or is an engineer. And here I am a fucking dumb ass history major who likes playing video games and reading in his spare time, and drinks rarely. How am I supposed to get along like this? Living feels like so much of a hassle. I just want to feel warm inside again, not struggling to breath the air of life and its blessings. I don't bring up my problems or insecurities or whatever because I've been taught its selfish. Is it too much to ask for a hug or someone who will listen?