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hey guys so i have to tell people but i cant tell my friends cuz they wouldnt understand and they would just think im doing it for attention. so a few things before i start 1. i dont type in caps unless im like yelling 2. im not writing this like i would write an english essay or paper so dont think im going to 3. i will spell a bunch of things wrong and probbly wont fix it and 4. if i think of something while im talking about something then i will get sidtracked and talk about that instead so be patient. so yea lol thanks
ok so first i havnt ever been good at school like i hae always been an average c student i dont get As or even Bs im just not like that i have always had an F in at least 1 class every year that i have gone to school starting from 3rd grade, i have a phone but over the past month or two ive had it for a total of 3 weeks because my mom take it. i have always tried my best in school i just dont pick up information and keep that info. like im in chemistry for my sophmore year and i have a C and thats literally bc of my friend she gives me the answers to stuff because our teacher does not teach us at all and i cnt just teach myself something on my own i need help and i HATE asking for help cuz i think they will get mad at me and not help me so i just dont ask,in english thats esay we just do membean which is like practicing words then she helps us with everything the classes i am failing are photography and band im failing photography bc i was supposed to drop out and my counseler didnt ever email me back so i couldnt drop out, in just 2 weeks we had 5 project and i didnt do them becuase i thought i was going to drop that class but i never did so now i have to make up 5 projects plus the projects that we are doing right now, oh that reminds me i was suppoesed to take 100 photos and i was going to do it over the weekend but my mom got to bust with my other sibligns but its ok cus she always does this. she'll say that we can do something then she will get busy and just not do it, like one time we were supoosed to go shopping and hang out all day but then my brothers needed something and that took up the whole day but its ok cus i just sat in bed all day waiting for her. one year on my birthday i stayed up at my friends house until 12 with my friend to celebrate my birthday and her whole family sang me happy birthday and stuff then i went home and non of my family members said it not even like the outside of my house family, but yea so she takes my phone every monday and gives it back to me on friday until the following monday and oml i was so proud of myself that i turned in all my assignments and i wast failing a class anymore like i had no missing assignments in the class and i was so happy and i got in the car and told my mom then once i was done telling her she yelled at me for not focusing on my failing classes and when i tried talking to her about she told me to not say excuses and that im grounded until shes ready to unground me and whenever i tell my friends these things they just say t reason with her and to talk to her but when i tell them i try but then i get grounded they say well maybe you should be grounded then i just go silent because im trying to tell them and not cry but they wont listen, no one listens to me they tell me im over dramatic and a baby.
everyday whenever i wake up i have to put on a smile and not cry so people dont make fun of me and think im overdramtic and a lier and i have to wait until i get home and everyone is asleep to let it out and i cant talk to anyone becuase i dont have my phone and everyone i play xbox with is asleep or they dont like me so i have no one
there is alot more that i want to talk about but i have to go but ill talk to you later besties love you