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1 month ago · · depressed,
I hate writing this but even more I hate feeling like this. I feel so selfish but I am happy for them, all of them. I got married when I did only so my in laws could be a part of our celebration (they live 800+ miles away). Now my sister in law is getting married, having this massive ceremony and I’m happy for her and her husband but my wife’s in the wedding and I’m not. They all have hair dressers and make up artists and multi thousand dollar suits that the bride and groom bought so everyone would match. However here I am, one of my front teeth currently knocked out, a cheap grey suit because it was all I could afford, these people don’t even speak to me. Why couldn’t they just invite my wife and I stay home. I feel so bad, I don’t want to ruin this for them... maybe I’ll just stand by the door and open it for them, maybe they’ll think I work there or something and I’m not with them. At least then I’d feel less... idk, out of place