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1 month ago · · Relationships, · Explicit
it was my fault in the end. i made you angry, too angry to go back from. my pride is in its last leg and i could not give in and ask for your forgiveness, only cut the cord for good. maybe that makes me cruel, "cold" like you said i was. maybe i didn't care about our friendship as much, like you said. you always say a lot of things. it makes me wonder if you're right or just being manipulative. you might not have thought i could change but i did. in the end, it was too much. i was already getting used to your absence. maybe you dont understand why i couldn't take you back anymore, but i don't care. one day. one day i won't care. but now i'll listen to taylor shift and curse you for giving me all these beautiful songs that are now stained with you. i want to hate you, but i think it's just a reflection. i hate myself for being selfish and mean and cold and insensitive and not thinking about you. i hate it. you bastard. why did you have to be the exact opposite of me, reeling me in but in the end too strong, too assertive, too sure of yourself. fuck you for making me afraid. i hope youve moved on. by god i hope you have. you better not be thinking about me.