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Trigger Warning! I am not of afraid of death, but same time I do.

1 year ago · 1 · death, +3


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I had to sacrifice part of my childhood to save myself from being insane. Thanks to my stepfather who abused me. I always want to die to end my suffering from this monster. The first time I have seen death was a drive-by shooting by a gang member who shoots a father or son for no reason. This I said to myself. "I am no longer a child. Now. This little boy must decide if wants to stay or go in this crazy world." Now in the present day. Now. A man knowing what going on in this world. I do want to die because it too much suffering and evil going on. Also, I lost a lot from friends and family thanks to covid-19, stupid people fighting over for stupid ideas, and others that don't care for other health and well being. Now. the fear of death does take over sometimes. But, it does help me to understand life and being fortunate to have things in life. Lastly, to be honest I don't know what happens when we die? But, listen to NDE stories and paranormal does give a little comfort.

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  • zika · 1 year ago

    Even if i say 1000000000 reasons why you shouldn't do it, I don't think I'll be able to do to you as much as you need to do for yourself, I'll just tell you, my life wasn't as bad as yours, but i got into a mess of shit and luckily, by a miracle i was able to get out of it, and let me tell you, you must live, you must fight, we need you, you weren't born to kill yourself.

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