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My Unsent Letter
1 month ago · · Stress, · Explicit
It's sorry... I don't want to fail but right now the only thing going for me is failure. I can't do anything correctly and when I try I can't seem to do it. I want you to care for me but someone brought to light that sometimes caring and loving someone too much isn't good. I think you need to let me go a little and stop caring as much as you do because it's not making it any easier on the both of us the way you do things. I get that at some point in time this will be for my benefit but right now it's hurting the both of us or at least it's hurting me and I'm not good with words so if you ask me why it's hurting I won't know how to explain that it is. I'm not ungrateful, I'm just not okay and for some reason, it doesn't register to you that some people just aren't okay, sure there are reasons behind it but those are reasons that I wouldn't tell you. Not because I don't trust you even though slowly I'm learning that I can't because you like to talk and that's okay but I don't want to be the subject of any conversation you have. I know that you talk shit about me with other people behind my back, you all do, I'm not oblivious I'm just quiet. You made me quiet, I lost any backbone I ever had defending you and protecting the ways you hurt me emotionally and physically. I have places to go, I have people whose arms are open and whose houses I am offered shelter and yet I stay with you because I don't want bad blood between us but maybe I need to leave for us to both stops hurting. Maybe you'll be happier without the stress of managing me on your shoulders. Your car just rolled up the driveway, I gotta go.