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1 month ago · · Stress, · Explicit
My aunt has pancreatic cancer, and I see my family crying all the time when they go to see her. My mom asked me if I felt bad because I didn’t show any type of grief, and I’m a very sensitive person. Deep inside I feel horrible, I want to cry, I want to see her in real life. She made me miserable sometimes but I cant cry. I’m so scared deep down. I have so much religious trauma and I feel like someone or something is watching me 24/7, every single second. I’ve never had a close family member pass away. I don’t want the thought of her watching me to be in my head. I feel so shitty man, reality is going to kick in soon. I don’t want anyone to watch over me, I hate what my parents did to me for me to think this way, I want my aunt to be okay, and not for my selfish reasons.