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it's been a min - val.
2 years ago · 3
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IT'S BEEN FOREVER OR SO IT FEELS. honestly been a crazy few weeks or however long it has been since I've come on here to write. a few weeks ago i got super drunk with some friends at my house and ended up having a suicidal episode of sorts in front of my friends butt ass naked since i wanted to take a bath to feel better. been nuts lately. it was my birthday the other day and this weekend i had my boyfriend over the whole time. i wish i had a car or he did but i know it will all eventually work out. been mentally iffy lately but my boyfriend's been keeping me sane even though we both struggle in our own ways mentally. my boyfriend makes me feel really safe honestly. we went and got chinese food and borrowed my landlords ( aka my second mom) car. while waiting on the food, we walked around the neighboring grocery store and shops around where we were. we also walked behind the grocery store and collection of stores. when doing so, we saw a bunch of shopping carts, most of which were broken. we found one cart that seemed to work and he suggested he push me in it. which honestly felt nice :) he knew not to go too fast or too slow. it was just nice. anything i do with him feels amazing. i know right now, him and i collectively have not so much in life but i know someday soon we will have all we need and more. he's 6foot5in and im 5foot6in. i truly love him so much. it's currently 5 am. I'm about to sleep. I'll write soon im sure.
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thats great <33
ReplyVAL MY GIRLLLLLL! You been on my mind heavy! I was waiting for my update! First, let me say, the butt naked suicidal episode gave me a cringe level of 10+. But, only because I've totally been there. Minus the naked part. I got super drunk one night and climbed in the tub with all my clothes on ready to do the deed, with many of my friends present, no less. But, look at us go. We're still here. I want to thank you for not doing that.
Im glad that you feel you have some kind of support system from your boyfriend.
It reminds me of a story I read long ago in Aesop's Fables. It's a rather antiquated collection of short stories with moral lessons.
I'll give you the summarized version:
One day, a father came to his sons with a bundle of sticks. He gave each one a single stick and asked them to break them, and they did. Next, he passed the whole bundle to the first son, and asked him to break the whole thing. He couldn't. And so on with the 2nd and 3rd sons. Finally, he told them to use all their power together to break the bundle. And this time, they succeeded. The moral being, that we can handle some small things on our own, but for the bigger things, we could achieve with some help from others.
And thats okay. We shouldn't think that we have to do everything on our own. And its great to be a help, while receiving it. Im sure you're affording him support in some way, as well. I love seeing couples like that- the big man with the tiny lady.😊 The thing with the cart is so sweet. I really like that the two of you can be so playful and innocent with each other. As always, I hope the two of you are also enjoying a few meals and snacks together. 😉
As always, I am keeping you in my prayers. May God bless and keep you, give you strength, wisdom, peace, and love. I look forward to your next post, doll. 💜
Le background singer,
Kiki 😘
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