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11 months ago · 3 · Stress, +1


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Me and my life is just a series of mistakes. My ego tries to keep telling me that it's not. I always try to justify myself and my actions. I am not a good person.

I blame my friends, call it bad luck or just blame God but the reality is it's all my fault. I know better. I have always had a choice. I have not been forced.

All that is happening to me and what has happened are my own fault. I don't get to blame anyone and I don't get to pretend that I had no control over anything. These are my mistakes and my decisions.

Each and every time I have thought to put myself first. My needs first. I am no better than any narcissistic person.

It's time I own up...

I just wish I was able to make better decisions. To stop thinking of myself first. I write this post now but a few hours later, come another decision and I make the same mistakes again. I wish I could stop myself a little and think before I do anything.

I hope I can change. I hope I can be a better person. I hope.

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  • Novni Guest · 11 months ago

    Don't just hope. Make a firm decision to do it.

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  • Novni Guest · 11 months ago

    You hope you can change. Are you only going to rely on hope? If you truly want to change and become a better person, work on it instead of just “hoping” that you change. You get to make a difference and turn everything around if you really want to.

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  • Confused2020 · 11 months ago

    You CAN change. Just one small step at a time. Just one breath at a time. You will falter, but you can get back up and move yourself forward as long as you believe in yourself.

    Reply

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