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11 months ago · · Stress,
Me and my life is just a series of mistakes. My ego tries to keep telling me that it's not. I always try to justify myself and my actions. I am not a good person.
I blame my friends, call it bad luck or just blame God but the reality is it's all my fault. I know better. I have always had a choice. I have not been forced.
All that is happening to me and what has happened are my own fault. I don't get to blame anyone and I don't get to pretend that I had no control over anything. These are my mistakes and my decisions.
Each and every time I have thought to put myself first. My needs first. I am no better than any narcissistic person.
It's time I own up...
I just wish I was able to make better decisions. To stop thinking of myself first. I write this post now but a few hours later, come another decision and I make the same mistakes again. I wish I could stop myself a little and think before I do anything.
I hope I can change. I hope I can be a better person. I hope.