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Nightmares are becoming a reality

1 year ago · 6 · Selfharm, +7


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So, i keep on having the same nightmare. But, it happens as a day dream too... So, the easiest thing to say is that it is a reoccurring issue and im scared of what it means or of what i am thinking subconsciously.

I wake up in the middle of the night, the clock next to me usually says around 3.15, of course... I feel sick rising through my throat so i climb out of bed and stumble to my bathroom, i look at myself in the mirror and my face is all flared up and puffy because i was crying im guessing. I start crying even more, but as the tears drop from my eyes i feel a burning sensation on my arm and legs.

I look down and i am covered in cuts, pouring out. I grab the hand to try and stop the blood but it just keeps coming and coming. I cry harder and start to shake, i wrap my arms and leps up in a towel and try to get back to bed, realising that i must have passed out after cutting and thats what woke me up. The pain.

I then lay there, aimlessly for hours curled in a ball... but this time when i get up im somewhere else, its dark and empty. The cuts have dried up but not gone completely, this time im clean... Then i walk towards this mirror and look at myself , and its just as i was in the first part, like watching myself suffer

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  • Novni Guest · 1 year ago

    i posted about having a nightmare before you🤨

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  • kimseoah · 1 year ago

    Basically its the mind which plays trick on you

    psychology brain constructs dreams based on r mental health. If u let urself suffer then you will eventually be depressed. Try not to remember the dream and start laughing ,smiling, cracking jokes..and see the change

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    • v1olet · 1 year ago

      so pretending to be happy? tricking myself into it?

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  • Geet_Nakra · 1 year ago

    Hey , i too had nightmares where i was killing my family members one by one for a week. I did somethings like - sit straight , close your eyes and concentrate on your breathing. try to smile even if you don't want to....and whenever you think about something bad, start chanting "om namah shivaay". this is what i have done.

    hope it helps you

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    • v1olet · 1 year ago

      thank you :)

      I will start trying this and let you know x

      Reply
      • Geet_Nakra · 1 year ago

        Waiting for your positive reply ;)

        Reply

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