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1 week ago · · Alone,
Idk why can't i stay with people for long .i keep losing people .whenever i thought i finally found someone on whom i can rely on.but the next moment they'll prove me wrong .
Its happening to me for the past 8-9 years after passing out from school.
I lose my all friends from school as i have to move on to my hometown for further studies. I tried to stay in contact with them on phone calls and on Facebook as much as possible. But slowly and slowly i started to realize that this was only one sided ...and then i stopped talking to everyone and remain in shell for a very long time untill i found someone. I thought he's someone special it was so good with him everything was good at first.we even decided to get married. He was going to ask my parents about it ...but then idk why we started to fight alot .but that's not what was bothering me he don't want to acknowledge my problems.he always ignores my problems and concerns and it was so frustrating. Then pandemic came and i ended everything from my side but earlier this year he approached me i melted down again but not even a month he's back to his old self.this time i broke up with him finally .and it was a good decision.but
The thing that hurted me the most i lost all my good friends.especially one friend who i thought is just like me and we're going to stick together for life.when she needed someone to talk to i was there for her but now she found a new friend so she left me.isnt that great. Idk what i did that i deserve all of this . I had a worst childhood i had a very bad teen years and now as an adult i suck. I suck at everything. Sometimes i think i should end my life. But then again I'm a loser here also . I'm still hoping that i can find someone. With whom i can share everything and he's gonna stay by my side for life . Am i being illusionary or not idk but i just hope. I can...