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I feel lifeless and so bad for myself.
1 week ago · · Stress,
Rn I'm in a bad very bad state of mind. I've always felt I'm worthless, I'm an disappointment, I'm burden to everyone, but rn these feelings are starting to take over me. I am so afraid to even talk with someone close because I feel I'm worthless and they'll waste their with me. I'm so tired of being this depressed, I've been since almost 3 years. This phase is a lot more disturbing. My abilities are decaying and I can't do a thing correct. I can't do anything. There's so much inside me that's dead. I still have love for my friends and family and but now I can't get myself up to even talk with them the way I used to. I feel as if every single sentence I speak is poking me back saying I'm worthless and I need to die. I don't have any energy to fight back this feeling and I am in very bad state. Im hurting people unintentionally and I have so many bad idea about myself. I feel all these feelings I suppressed inside me are coming out now and they're overflowing. I'm feeling weak and I have literally no one to talk about this. I'm feeling lifeless now but I'm also feeling this guilt of unintentionally hurting people around me. I don't know what's happening and when and how I'll be better. I am scared and I am feeling tightness in my chest.