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I was here for a while
1 month ago · · life,
90 years of existence may already be long for some, while others think of it as a short life. But for me, it's just a while, no matter how large the number of years I've spent in this world.
Whenever I realize that I may not be able to travel every city in the world, I realize how limited my life is. I want to explore every culture, hear every language, meet different people, but that can only be possible through online. I can never do that in real life.
Then, I realize, I will never have the opportunity to go outer space and see the whole Earth with my own eyes. Maybe the chances of that happening only plays along 1 to .009%. If I got an excellent job that can connect me to NASA which can help me ride with astronauts, maybe it can come true. But I know reality, that is pretty hard.
We all know how only important people stay alive through history. Even in families, but sadly sometimes, even being so important, you may still end up being called "the one who did this and that." We will be all forgotten at some point.
It's sad, isn't it?
Or is it not?
Some people will be contented with being alive now, some are happy because they at least experienced some of life's offers.
Sadly, I'm not that type of person. I want to be somebody. I want to see something, be something, go somewhere, and not just someone who lived for a while.
Yet, life's cruel reality holds me here - here that only limits me to be someone who lived.
I wished oblivion still surrounds me. Be the same kid who thought dreams come true with just three easy steps - dream, do, and be. I mean, I can't even do the first step anymore when I'm supposed to be at the third step by now.
I'm just so tired of being a speck of dust floating somewhere in the middle of a galaxy between millions of other galaxies.
I don't want to be here for a while, I want to stay a little longer.