What are you looking for?
To my soulmate
11 months ago · · Love,
I know how it feels to miss someone you don't even know. I know the pain behind that. But I also know what I want to tell you. Even if you never read this.
It hurts, I know it does, but I'll tell you something that kinda helps me. When you're feeling that ping, and you just can't seem to feel good because he's not there, just try to remember that he at least exists. That one day, you will meet and think about what that means for you. What changes? How would you feel?
Because if you know for a fact that you'll be oh so happy, then try to feel it. Let your feet step in rhythm and know that he's out there too, thinking about you. Hoping that whatever you are doing, that you're happy.
Because you don't want him to save you, you don't want him to come in like a knight in shining armor. That never works out anymore.
You hope that he is happy, right? Think about this for just one moment. Assume you could telepathically send him a message right now and you could see his emotions.
What's your reaction if he's hurting just like you? What's your first instinct? Would it be to comfort him, tell him how much you love him? Say you're waiting for him?
Or do you let him know that it's alright. Maybe you haven't met yet, maybe it's not time but at least you both know for a fact that this is where you both become a purer version together.
You get what I'm saying?
Let's make it a bit more personal. We are both in the same dilemma, right? Waiting for that special someone to come in and make life so much more fulfilling, to belong to each other, to love unconditionally. Right?
Say for a moment it were to be you and me. I'd tell you that it's ok. I know it hurts that I'm not there right now but give me some time. In the process, I don't want you to miss out just because I'm not there. I want you to know what it's like to enjoy your day to day life, I want you to feel accomplished in this existence, I want you to not hold back. If you want something, I want you to go get it and if it's worth fighting for, I want you to be willing to stand your ground. Not for me, but for you. Because we're going to butt heads sometimes and I don't want you to feel like you have to back down, I want you to be sure of what you feel and what you want. Because if you know, absolutely know, what you want, then we can build that together. Even if we don't see eye to eye on every single detail.
I want you to love yourself enough to do all of that and I want you to know that it's ok to enjoy the time between now and then. I know it hurts so bad, but you can take that pain and turn it into certainty. Just knowing I'm out here, just like you. Waiting for you to come into my life and I am so very grateful that you exist, that you're alive and I want you to be able to have fun with that. Otherwise, what's the point?
If we're both miserable right now, finding each other is only a temporary fix. Eventually life becomes miserable again. But if we choose to break that, right here, right now. When we finally do meet, we will have so much life to share together. So much to learn together, so many adventures together and I want you to know what that life is like. So when you feel it, bounce your step a bit and smile. Because time is the only barrier.