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4 days ago · · Stress, · Explicit
I'm so frustrated rn that i can even kill myself.where the hell did i go wrong.i choose my path.i choose what's right for me. When something or someone was bothering me i distant myself from them.when someone was keep hurting me and in the end it becomes intolerable for me i choose to stand for my peace but I'm the one who did wrong to them bc i was being selfish why is this bullshit???????????????????
Lemme tell you.
I had a friend who was much similar to me (or as i thought) .she was much much special to me . Little by little she was going far away from me idk why then i realized she become friend with someone who's much special to her.i told her that I'm feeling this.but she said no its not true.this is all bc of exams and all don't worry . I convinced myself.but then again whenever we three are together she always choose to go to him. Everyone's think that they have a thing and that's why never told her about my insecurities and feelings bc i know they're just friends and I'll become the wrong jealous friend. But finally bust it out at her few days ago. And now she's going everywhere and telling what not. And now our common people thinks that I'm the bad person who hurt her feelings.and let me tell you this i got no friends i have a phobia of making friends bc of many past issues.so I don't talk to or close to any of those so no-one is asking my reasons and making me the evil one. And it is so frustrating. I literally have no one. Believe i got no one to tell this .or even to cry over this with someone. I hate my life i hate all people who are so judgemental. But i hate myself more .why i trist people so easily.....????? Just why???????