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Last April 2020, as the lockdown was just starting, I decided to go on a weight loss journey. I was 18, 153 cm, 49 kg at that time. After just three months, I was able to reach 45 kg. I was thrilled with how I looked. I had low body fat percentage, ,and I look good in my clothes.
I was able to maintain my weight until April 2021. I ate with discipline and worked out consistently. However, schoolwork became stressful, so I gained my weight back plus more. I am now 53 kg, and I NEVER HATED MYSELF SO MUCH. I lost all my confidence. I wear baggy clothes to hide my fat, I turn off my cam during video calls, and I hate it when other people see me in this state.
I've been trying to get back on losing weight, but I am having a problem in being consistent. I hold out well for a week, but then I end up bingeing one day, and I cry at night after this happens. I tried to find an accountability partner, hoping that it will make the situation better. I am also writing in this website to let out my feelings. I just want everything to be better. I feel like this aspect of my life has been negatively affecting me way too much.
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Well it's your perception of it that is affecting you. You go and binge one time and then it's just all over.
That's not how this works, you're gonna slip, you're gonna fall, you're gonna slide back. Plan for it. Instead of beating yourself up, figure out why. Was it the smell? Was it nostalgia or comfort? What drives you to hit that binge?
And then, once you hit that binge, instead if just stopping and saying "I quit", how about you accept it and just keep going? Why can't you do that? Is there something morally wrong with that? Do you have to get it exactly right, all the time? Or can you afford to be just a little human?
Give yourself time to practice. It doesn't matter if you pig out one night. That's really not going to impact your weight in the long run. You're not going to suddenly and magically just put on 2kg overnight, right?
So go with it. Stop stopping and quit quitting. That's how you get better at it, you practice. I swear to you, just practice. Practice like you're practicing learning to talk or learning to play an instrument or whatever. Whatever you associate with practicing, that's what I want you to think if this as.
It's just practice, nothing more. So get to practicing and if you miss practice one day next week, that's fine. Get back up and keep practicing the next day.
ReplyI know how it feels. I was 64kgs and now I'm 60kgs. Currently in a weigh loss journey myself. I have been a foodie as a kid always been called fat even when I was not. During school days that used to be my nickname I was not offended it didn't bother me coz I didn't care I knew I was fat. But when I stopped looing good in jeans and normal clothing's. It hit me that I might be ugly and not cute kinda fat anymore. I always go unto 60 and lose weight upto 52 and then I get excited and happy and go bake to my normal foodie life and ruin it. I have tried soo many times..I have cried over it soo many times every time I order food it hits me. now even my family is ashamed of me. every time they remind me i need to lose weight I'm fat. its horrible and it makes me want to give up. its my 6th time on a weight lose journy...and im scared . and its affecting my life in every way possible.
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