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6 months ago · · Stress,
first thing on my mind
i am afraid to die but I don't want to exist. ive been wondering what is the point of living, what is my purpose of being on this earth. everyday i wake up and repeat the same cycle of doing nothing, i have no motivation, no goal, i just eat , sleep, breathe and see strangers voice their thoughts online .
all my classmates are successful in their lives and so are my cousins. i on the other hand don't have it in me to become a doctor. I am afraid i don't have the appropriate knowledge AS WELL AS the appropriate brain capacity to store as much information so as to heal a human.
so what am i doin really ?
my parents have done so much for me ever since i was a kid. they've sacrificed blood sweat, tears and have blessed me with their prayers but I only waste their energy and effort. for this alone, I don't deserve to live. i am the worst daughter, i don't deserve the love I receive.
i am not satisfied with my body either it disgusts me.
if i don't like anything, not one single thing in my life , why am I alive ?
please give me answers why am i alive? anybody please tell me.