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Hey anonymous humans
So I have never posted a properly vulnerable piece before. I normally lock them away. But I decided I could let this one escape, become real into the world. I had a kind of nightmare last night (unsurprising, I always have vividly strange dreams). But last night it was about me at work. I am a waitress. I was taking a tables order, and this old man started grabbing my inner thigh. He just kept grabbing at me and no matter how many times I pulled away, he reached for me harder. I remember scolding him, and saying that I was just trying to take his food order. I remember crying and shouting over the table, 'why are you letting him do this? Can't you see what's happening?' as it progressively got worse, but they all just stared at me. I eventually got away, and ran into the kitchen. My favourite chef was there, comforting me, but when he asked me what was wrong I couldn't speak. I had no voice. And all I could do was cry, until I woke up.
Later this afternoon, somebody offered me some mint slice biscuits- you know? The Arnott's ones. Well anyway, that's what HE used to have. They were his special biscuits that I used to sneak from the pantry whenever I was over. And it was like the world just stopped and laughed and said, you can't get away. Such a coincidence, to be offered those biscuits when we haven't had them in the household for a very long time. Such a coincidence, to have them after that kind of dream. Some days are worse than others. Some days are better. Today is neither. Could be better, have been worse. I feel so run down. I am sick of 'coping', but it is all I can do.
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I know nothing about dream interpretation but I do believe we have them for a reason. Little warnings and messages. I feel run down too. Probably for different reasons, but I'm just completely tapped out. We do what we must though (cope as you say) and keep on trudging forward.
ReplyWe'll all get through it together some how. Look after yourself too stranger xx
ReplyMaybe you are burnt out and should rest as much as you can.
Last night I dreamed that I was at work in an office and I kept my 2 cats and dog under my work desk. Then when I went back to work they were gone so I questioned everyone around me and they denied knowing anything. Later in this dream I was outside and thought I had found my dog but it was another one the same color but with a different collar and a hole where one of its eyes should have been and a hole in its back. I was going to contact the ranger to try to find my pets but as I returned to work the boss called me into her office to tell me how much she liked me and that she had saved everything of mine that I had left behind on my desk. Then the dream ended.
ReplyDreams are so strange and haunting sometimes. I always have strange ones like that. Take care, and thank you for sharing your dream story too xx
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