My Unsent Letter To Amelia

Hey Amelia. It's hard to believe that we have drifted so much. It is truly upsetting too because I did love you, in more than one way. We had so many plans for the future and we made so many memories together. Now, it feels as if everything is being thrown away. I tried so hard to maintain our friendship. Because I was so scared, I didn't know what I'd do if you left my life. Turns out that the feeling was not mutual though. You never make the effort to send me a quick message saying "hi" or seeing how I'm doing. You barely even put in the effort to respond to me anymore, which hurts just as much as if you didn't want to be friends with me. I just wish you could put in the same effort as I am. I'm trying so hard... but it seems like you couldn't care any less. It really hurts. We've been friends for so long, I thought you would at least pretend to care. We were so close and we would tell each other everything. We did everything together and made our futures with our friendship as the blueprint. We were going to get an apartment together and travel around the world. It all went wrong when you started finding those toxic friends online. At the time, everything was going well and they seemed very kind. We were both fooled. I was so happy for you, you had a crush on one of them. Although, I liked you at the same time and it did hurt, I accepted it and continued being the best friend I could be. Recently, the one you had a crush on turned on you. Now, and only now, have you had the time to actually message me back. You only found time because you don't have them anymore. Once again, it hurt but I accepted it and was just thrilled to be able to talk to you again. That lasted for a good 2 days I'd say. After that, you went back to barely talking to me and only responding when it was convenient for you. Of course, I'd be understanding if you were truly busy but we both know you aren't. You choose to ignore me and that's what hurts the most. You have the time and you say you "want to message me". Then why not? You've always been so inconsistent with our friendship, only being their when it is convenient for you. But I've always been there for you whenever you've needed someone. Why can't you be there for me, as well?