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Trigger warning mention of harm suicide
Idk I feel the need to get my feelings out. I'm not heartless it's anything far from it. However today my dad's acquaintance died the one he treated like royalty when he treated me like garbage. We got a text from her daughter saying thank you for being *so good to her* He'd go party with her take her to the store and get drugs off her as well not all the time but here and there every month . So I have a right to feel the way I do because if somebody did that to him he'd feel the same way. He was near crying but yet he told me to go kill myself a few months back. Ok so how am I supposed to fe when he told me to go cut my wrists and he's grieving about his "acquaintance". I mean I'm sorry for her family and her she was suffering with cancer she died I think in her sleep but we didn't think she'd go so soon. I met her one time when they took me there once a good year or two ago maybe. No hard feelings against her. I mean she did help us with a car allowed us to pay payments to her and her hubby however breaking the agreement raising it 200 when itd already been agreed on the price. I think she was good hearted. She had her flaws I heard but I won't mention out of respect for her who don't. But my dad acts like he wouldn't have cared if I died but her he near cried. How do I process that? I just don't know. I haven't been able to sleep well the last 2 weeks. I'm just as valuable as she was yet he didn't care if I died. Wtf is up with that? How just how and why I'm his own flesh n blood. I'm sorry for the woman's family but I don't feel bad for him since he told me go kill myself. Now what dad? I know you'll still kiss your other acquaintances ass too. That's just less drugs you can get now. My feelings are valid too not that you seem to care just wanna use me when you can.
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