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4 months ago · · Need advise,
My bf and I are in a rough patch. We've been together for awhile and since I've taken up a new hobby and haven't smoked weed in awhile, I've grown irritable, now unable to stop the flood of the past from bothering me because I'm sober enough to not ignore it anymore. My bf places me on a pedestal, I don't like it as it makes him seem week, forcing me to look down on him. It doesn't help that he feels like he can't make me happy or that he's unworthy of me. Someone that I've met since gaining this new hobby seems to have taken an interest in me. He now stays on days that I'm there and he usually leaves. I catch him staring during those moments. When we talk, he'll look at my with soft sultry eyes, biting his lip and smiles, giving me his full attention. He's also taking to touching my more, so gently on my forearms. I'm attracted to him, I don't know what to say. The difference between being looked at LIKE THAT to being looked up to in a similar way a dog begs is staggering. My bf and I are on basically a standby, could get better, could get worse. I just don't want to leave for "something better" when I could be wrong... or right. And i don't want to leave if it's just a phase and I can learn to find more things about my bf attractive, when he can grow into something more confident.