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5 months ago · · random
My heart sunk one day when he aired the fact that that he liked my best friend and frankly he wasn’t the only boy in my class who did. So as a good friend the only thing I could do is sit back and watch him love her and she ignores him. Took me months to overcome this obstacle but I eventually did, and my heart was at peace but not for very long I decide to move seats and ended up sitting with my next heartache. A few weeks after I moved seats, we started talking and that was my biggest mistake not that I regret it. A few months passed and it came to my realization he was the common F-boy I thought our deep conversations had meaning but maybe it meant too much that he had to share them with any other boy he might have ever known. The screenshots of our convos circulated all over the boy groups and I became a trending topic. Eventually, I had to face the consequences of over entrusting someone with my feelings. We fought a made up at least once every week and I couldn’t see that he was my biggest weakness and would come to cause me such an inconvenience, I always told myself the same thing every time he did something wrong “he doesn’t mean it he will change”. Well, he didn’t change but it changed me. I had a complete personality makeover, let’s say I began to smile less. We talked mostly late at night and called a lot and if it was a video call only, I had my camera on, he was very manipulative, and I didn't know how to say no to him. We continued like this until the beginning of summer break and as it is now, we don't talk and when we do I have to be the one starting the convos and chasing him around, but I'm done! I wish I thought through the outcome before going ahead and liking him.
Emotions are some contagious type of sickness I hope to never catch again but then again having a crush at my age was completely normal but that is something I hope to never experience again.