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the almost compleley stripped animal perspective of a veteran of sorts, me, born of my own war this lifetime
2 years ago · 0 · Explicit, +3 · Explicit
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been here a few weeks now, and ive tried to be of help to some as far as i can muster bt its tough, then again if youre not tough how did you get on this site....so getting here must already mean some spark had been set in motion to make you want to get somewhere better.but now i have to move on, but i will leave you with this as it also contains conclusion from what ive learnt here.
you want to have half a life you want to have calm peace and quiet, theres enough to choose, one more fantastical than the other, only more than half th eworld right now (or some other number figure it out. figuratively. are veterands of human struggle that did not let up
it seems like that thnigs i can touch was the only thing that could be real,when you live a life of broken bones and souls it is not advisable to lay your fate in the hands of something you cant see any effect of. all you can have must fit in yoru hand and these things must carry yuou to every sunset or you are....left behind. if you can form a tag team where everyone knows whats what it lessens the load x10 but when you dont, and you had it, then it also hurts x10 when they are gonre.............................you know the raw emotion you wanted to feel and all you can do is netflix an engineered set of emotional triggers to be able to feel somethign when life itsefl had become so comfortable most people can get by without that survival instinct kicking in and having to blast full force for a while only just to make the next day, week, season etc. what does it look like from there, then maybe you can see th efunhouse mirror between us. victims of war veterands got taken by surprise the effects need to be sorted categorised placed and filed or your head will explode. and then you seem to get free and then what.there si the empty staring back at you and you dont even know what it is or how to handle that. if i cant see it how can i ever live with it. that is as far as i can see always the marker.
then when you can let your feet sink in the mud, shake it off, release your anger to the stream that washes the mud away, looking at the morning dew shimmer and having the first sun beams hit your fur this is direct sensory input thats the opposite of what youve seen, the animals are wise enough to let each other be and give space because they know what CAN happen and want to preserve their energy intelligently. when you have something that pure and unbroken being chopped to pieces by animals that forgot themselves and took this beauty to pave it to run around after each other in their funhouse mirror world, then where does that leave us. the animal, the hurt, the broken and the lonely. never any place to get back to yoru senses literally, when at =least your sensory inpt is soorthing, and nothing else has to be processed by the human layer for just one second (because you don't even have to be alert when you case the scene correctly that this pure simple rawness is all that you need and that it would seem pointless to thank a higher power when your own kind always thanks these "powers" for winning their little fights on the paved and broken world. this is just one narrative, but choose what you like. not sayig it means anythign definitive, adding up dry facts and collections of knowledge collected combined seem to take aim in all directions. whatever meaning you seek in anything is yoru business, this all is in th eend only a mechanical desription of some observable processes and what that logically amounts to. maybe you see god as teh instigator and that could be your choice, but maybe he seems tainted from here always pasting him on war cries for the funhouse mirror war, that bnever seeems to end.
from both sides(so to be clear only those versions right there nothing more nothing less). dont choose sides. step aside and analyse (opinion, by NML anonymous)
ps. leave me alone figure the rest out yourself and give it yoru own meaning or place it into your own perspective but know that this is real, based on pure observation adn will =power to strt through these observations to make sense of it and make it doable. sometimes the conclusions that come rolling out are cold unwanted and dark and bleak but some are beautiful fragile and worth protecting. almost life like. and again, purely descriptive, nothing to start a new cult over so fuck off. and just as valid as every survival strategy out there. always watch out for idiots who think they're clever trying to sell you their agenda as if you wanted that all along, dont get fooled dont fool yoruself. peace.
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