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2 months ago · · Breakup · Explicit
I can’t get over the fact that you just gave up, I never got a second chance to show you how good I am. You knew that we were good, we just worked. We never fought and we were just good together….I just wish I got a second chance yk. Like I know life isn’t fair or whatever but come on. You know for a fact I would never have done what I did if I thought I could fight it.
I miss us so much. Every day I wake up and realize that it is just another stupid day without you and i have to push all those emotions down because I know showing my weakness for you will only push you away. I have never known a stronger feeling than the feeling I felt when you would hold me in your arms and scratch my back or make some dumb joke or sing suicide boys. You know I did everything for you, I gave you everything I could to make you love me and I know you did the sale, the only difference is that you just got over that...you ended it and moved on like we were never in love and that was the most painful thing I have ever gone through. I genuinely thought we were gonna be forever...and I was right, but you weren’t wiling.
What you don’t understand is that I may have been just a life lesson to you but you were and still are so much of my world, I still get the same stomach drop I got when you broke up with me and like I said, I have to wake up to that every fucking day. If the roles were reversed I wouldn’t have told everyone and I would have worked things out because you are my everything, but the roles aren’t reversed and I’m not your everything. I might add that I never was. I’m not saying I was nothing to you but I wasn’t everything either.
You killed the all the love I had in my heart and I mean all of it. The saying goes “shattered my heart” well I think you did that. No, I know you did that. You said you loved me but when you love something you don’t just give up on them, you fight like hell through the ups and downs and you give it a second chance because you know that I love you and could never stop loving you. See you put me in that position, the position to never stop loving you...give me my shirt back dude.